Three more years of tightchestedness...unacceptable, in my book. My close friends have had it with me, always ready to burst into random tears...something must be done, and qutiing law school just doesn't make sense. Quitting my job sounds VERY appealling, but I need to live and pay for law school. I'm just having back to the classroom blues this week. It will be better once the rugrats are in my presence and I can see the hand I have been dealt for the next 180 days... AND I'll have a new drug....Shoshana.
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My dentist saved me today
by La Capra ini adore my dentist.
she inherited me when my dentist before passed away, about 7 years ago.
she always remembers everything about me and asks tons of questions that i can't answer while she clears away the plaque of the last six months.
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My dentist saved me today
by La Capra ini adore my dentist.
she inherited me when my dentist before passed away, about 7 years ago.
she always remembers everything about me and asks tons of questions that i can't answer while she clears away the plaque of the last six months.
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Oh, cause, then it would give me something else to worry about. Actually, my dentist said it was called propranolol. It is a nonselective beta adrenergic blocker...Just read the page out of her drug book she gave me. It's good for a variety of other annoyances as well. The reason most people don't know about this one is because it really doesn't make you feel happier. It just allows you not to be affected so detrimentally by the little stuff. I guess everyone is off to see their doctors today. Shoshana
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My dentist saved me today
by La Capra ini adore my dentist.
she inherited me when my dentist before passed away, about 7 years ago.
she always remembers everything about me and asks tons of questions that i can't answer while she clears away the plaque of the last six months.
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La Capra
What is the name of the drug....it would be irresponsible for me to name it, but it is a drug that is actually prescribed for high blood pressure, but can be used effectively for anxiety. Fact is your doctor probably took it when she was in med school, too... And as for worrying about things that can't be helped. That is the problem. If you have anxiety, it is beyond mental worrying. It is a physical worry...it as though your body is in constant fight or flight reaction. When some ordinary daily roadblock comes along, the internal reaction is not normal, it's as though losing your pencil creates the same reaction as your house burning down...Just not thinking about it doesn't take the physical reaction away. I am brilliant about not thinking about things, but I can't shake the tightness in my chest. Which, of course is one more thing about which to worry. Shoshana
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Whats the deal with the napkins on the head?
by RoadDoctor in.
what is the idea behind the sisters wearing a head covering when they lead a group for field service?
is there something written in the bible new world translation about this?
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The only time I saw the napkin technicality used was during girls-only showers and teas. It was time to eat, and the hostess wouls just grab the nearest thing handy-a napkin off the table. Otherwise there was someone prepared with a hat or scarf. Not that this will ever come up for me in my life again, but I think I would rather have a clean napkin on my head rather than the "congregation scarf." Thme nits is nasty...Shoshana
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My dentist saved me today
by La Capra ini adore my dentist.
she inherited me when my dentist before passed away, about 7 years ago.
she always remembers everything about me and asks tons of questions that i can't answer while she clears away the plaque of the last six months.
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La Capra
I adore my dentist. She inherited me when my dentist before passed away, about 7 years ago. She always remembers everything about me and asks tons of questions that I can't answer while she clears away the plaque of the last six months. Today we were discussing my law school, and my working full time, and a li'l ol' battle I'm having with the dean, and so on....and she asked me if I was sleeping ok. The answer was NO. Not that she could tell by my mouth and teeth, but that she could relate having gone to dental school. She then asked if I was having anxiety...well of course, I'm having anxiety, I'm a law student AND high school teacher, of course I have anxiety. Did I say I'm having anxiety? I'm having anxiety... She the told me about a med that works on anxiety that doesn't have to be taken regularly, only when needed that doesn't dull the mind (which is why I have not started taking anti-anxiety medication during law school...must remember every definition...), or the coordination. It's a blood pressure medicine. She told me that EVERYONE she knew in dental school took it for the board practica, and such. I'm calling my doctor tomorrow. There is no reason I have to walk around with my heart in my throat everytime I lose my pencil (well that was an exageration, but not too much of one.). Just knowing I don't have to hit the heavy stuff has alredy calmed me down. And no cavities this time... (which is a different thread.... how many of us have totally crappy teeth because our parents figured we get a new set in the new system anyways...me, me).
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The Fine Art of Kissing
by Robdar ini use to hate kissing.
i was a virgin until i was 19 and married.
i hadnt had a chance to experiment with kissing in my teenage years.
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I was 16. I went with my friend, so she could go out with her boyfriend. Ringo Starr look alike went with his friend so his friend could go out my friend. Shortly after arriving at Corona Del Mar at dusk, Ringo and I found ourselves abandoned by the young lovers who headed off alone to make out. Ringo and I settled into the sand, to watch the sunset, and wait for the love birds. We talked for awhile, got to know each other, and at one point I realized my palms were sweaty and my heart was pounding. He must have been experiencing the same thing, because only seconds after I became aware of how much I wanted him to kiss me, his face leaned towards mine, our hands found appropriate positions, and our lips were touching in the sweetest, most sensual, promising kiss I had yet to experience in my short, innocent life. Perfect lips, the right amount of tongue, nibbling and hair tangling. A sweet pre-adult momen that I hope I never forget. And, hey, Ringo, if you are reading this, it's me "Melvina" (using code names even back then...) Shoshana
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Has anyone given up love for the organization?
by Victorian sky inhi all, just wondering how many have given up the man or woman they love for the borg?
i know it's a painful subject for some.
i gave up my first love when i was studying.
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Yes, once. And then I started to realize how many people "in the world" were worthy of my love, and whose love would benefit me. The second time I was forced to confront the issue and ordered to abandon a new friend that I absolutely adored, I realized this would be a recurring theme in my life, so instead of giving up love, I gave up the organziation. While that friend is no more in my life, I don't regret the choice, because I have dozens of friends who love me for me, and not because I turn in a regular service report and don't date worldly boys...Shoshana
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Mom initiates contact
by La Capra ini adore my mother, she has but one flaw...and, well, that is the story of my life.
when i quit jws cold turkey at the tender age of 19, i was still living at home, with her and my dad (the long-suffering unbelieving mate).
this enabled my mother to still have her only daughter and youngest born in her life, with little hassle from anyone.
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I adore my mother, she has but one flaw...and, well, that is the story of my life. When I quit JWs cold turkey at the tender age of 19, I was still living at home, with her and my dad (the long-suffering unbelieving mate). This enabled my mother to still have her only daughter and youngest born in her life, with little hassle from anyone. My dad wouldn't have me treated badly in his home (yay Daddy!) As I worked my way from the nest, I worried she would reduce her affection and inclination towards a realtionship with me. But it didn't happen. However, when I moved, she never initiated contact with me via the phone. If I called she'd yak with me for hours, and return my messages if she was out. But if she wanted to talk to me, she wouldn't call, but wait for me....and we'd yak for hours. Yet today she couldn't wait. I hadn't called in a few weeks due to some overwhelming craziness at work and school. She so couldn't wait, she actually called me on my cel phone. I missed it because I was in the courthouse, where the signal is poor. At any rate, she called me, to tell me of closed escrow news in the sale of my grandmother's house which was wrought with legal issue upon legal issue. I haven't been able to get back to her yet, but I could hear in her voice that I was the first person she wanted to tell. She was so excited, and it was ME daugther-apostate that she wanted to tell first. These are the small (no HUGE) things for which that blasted cult has made me grateful. Peace and gratitude in my heart tonight. Shoshana
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Our own personal growth and leaving
by Mr Lebowski infirst, the tee-up: many on this board are former jws.
former jws fall into two categories:.
1) those who consciously chose out, perhaps as an intellectual position, perhaps as an emotional reaction to some event, maybe while in the throes of some existential crisis.. 2) those who blew it, and got busted for (cue music) breakin the law, breakin' the law, breakin' the law.
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For me it was #1, but thanks to the fact that guys out there did like me, and because I nice,I would talk to them. I discovered that there were really nice, wonderful people everywhere,and the JWs didn't have the corner on the love market, and for a man-made organization to command whom I could and couldn't love, be it romantic or brotherly, or friendly, became an utterly ridiculous notion that on its face defied all reason and logic. And further research proved that it was preposterous.
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Anyone else from N.California here yet?
by jelly ini was starting to worry.
i dont post much but i usually check the site daily.
oh well, its nice to be here.. terry
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I D.A.ed from my childhood congregation, 15 years ago. I am living in a town about 30 miles away. I'm not sure how they found me. I am unlisted, my mother would NEVER tell anyone where I was living. I am a teacher at a local high school. And I have the feeling that one of my students may have witness family from my hometown, and my name on a report card was recognized. Icky thing, though is that they probably had to go to public records to track down if I owned property, to find where I lived. It was very unnerving for them to come to my door and tell me they knew who I was, and that I was disfellowshipped...They said they had received a letter that I was living there (letter my ass). I calmly asked to see the letter, since it clearly contained false information, and that if I knew who wrote it, I might be able to clarify why the person would want to lie about me. Of course, there was no letter. I got their full names-wrote them down when they said them. Then I repeated that they had libelous information, and if they made any statements based on it, they were on notice that it was untruthful. Then I walked them out to their car and made sure they saw me writing down their license plate number. This was not a "purging our rolls" visit. This was a thinly veiled attempt to intimidate me should I ever think of getting vocal. This could have an effect on my professional standing as a teacher, if parents for "religious reasons" don't allow their children to be in my class. This also had a profound impact on me personally. I was physically ill for a few days, and it upsets me still to think about it. Shoshana